How stupid am I?

Will left this morning for Blanding. I decided to still go to church, even though I have all of the kids. (For the record, Will offered to take some of them, but I told him not to. What is wrong with me?) Anyway, we got to church on time. Oh, man though. We did not stay in the room for the whole first meeting. Julie was pretty bad. I was having a difficult time holding more than one kid on my lap, while trying to grab others. At some point, I got jabbed in the eye by a marker (top on) from Amelia. This still hurts now, since I have hard lenses. I felt like my eye was a big, red blob. That was the worst part. Once the second hour got underway, things were much better. The older three went willingly to their classes, even Calvin. But, I was still left to teach a class, and deal with Amelia. It was interesting. She is quite vocal these days, whether she is happy or angry. The class was about doubled in size, due to holiday visitors. I made it through it, although, it was not pretty at times.
The point of the story is: if your husband offers to take kids with him for a night away- LET HIM. Even if you can tell he's only offering to be nice.
I won't leave the house again until he gets back.